Wow I haven't posted since my birthday... the day I decided to become celibate. It has been 111 days since I made this decision.It was based on wanting to focus on school and change my romantic life. Of course God has a plan and a sense of humor and placed this wonderful man in my life.He respects my celery diet(insider) and is willing to wait. So what's the issue??? Now I'm tempted not to wait and let go of my original goal of 1 year. It is believed that the first 6 months are the hardest after that it's a breeze. Wish I met him later...
If he wasn't so awesome I would drop him as a threat but he's like the greatest guy I have ever dated. D is everything I look for in a man mentally. Not my usual physically but he is sexy in his own petite way(insider hehe)... I'm pacing myself and taking it one day at a time. I am determined to complete my vow, just worried about the temptation. We're so connected it's scary. I sometimes feel like I'm dating again too soon. I'm worried about making the same mistakes with D as I did with A. I can't afford the time or mental capacity to which was dedicated to A. I can't allow my happiness to rely on a man again. It's not healthy at all. D makes me want to be better and bring him along with me. I already think about the future. I don't want to deal with that right now, 2 months haven't even passed. I'll admit he's different from any man I've dated EVER and I've never felt like this BUT is it worth losing control, focus and me???
This is a dangerous road to me. One never traveled but the one I've always been warned about.
We'll see how it unfolds... till next time *smooches*
